A friend of mine recently summed up her current reality as a "bad-dark-place". It is a terrible destination. I've been there. There are many routes. Sometimes you jump on the crazy train, and don't bail. Sometimes others put you in the boxcar. Sometimes you present your pricey ticket backed by cheap illusions, "all aboard", and have a lovely time, until you get kicked off and deposited in some train depot called desolation.
However you get there, by your own accord or with the help of others, it is a "bad-dark-place". It is palpable. By the time you get there, no amount of rationalizations or delusions can dispel the truth of where you stand.
So what keeps you going? You can't just let yourself deconstruct. So what do you do? Hijack it the hell out? There are multiple routes out of the desolate abandon. But this is where it gets tricky. Are you as the 90's GnR album so adequately expressed, "using your illusions"? Or are you treading out on truth?
This is where you should anticipate some indecision. I don't know about you, but my mind, body, heart, & spirit seem to battle it out for the acquisition, attainability, and ultimate acceptance of a conferred upon truth. Something of a modern day drawn & quartering, rendered by all, a violation of the common good. Until they, finally, all white-flag, in amity. It is a sort of a pulled-in-all-directions, crossroads compromise.
None of my components of self actually desire to meet this dark demise. The ultimate destruction. They won't always agree, but they, eventually, find a way to look to the light. Light & truth.
For me, light sometimes proceeds truth. The physical light somehow creates a ubiquitous aperture to truth. The way in which I can best describe this core, is through the scripture verse found in John 14:6, which reads,
" Jesus saith unto him, I am the way the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me."
I do not say this tritely. In conjunction with the Frank Lloyd Wright quote:
"The truth is more important than the facts"
I can say this for a fact. Jesus Christ holds true to his promises.
"Ask , and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."- Matthew 7:7
And in my experience? That opening referred to has been a portal to light, knowledge, wisdom, answers, hope, light, and peace. Mind, body, heart, & spirit conjoin in a co-op and jump off the "crazy train" heading on the "road to no-where". Although, don't be fooled, the truth-train isn't going to be parked and waiting for your immediate arrival. It often requires a trek through the dark to the light at the end of the tunnel. But, your efforts will be rewarded and you will, eventually, get to the opening. "Seek and ye shall find", truth can sometimes proceed light.
" But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God." - John 3:21
"All Aboard!" Light & truth. Truth & light. This, that, & the other. Whichever it be, you need to hijack the hell on before you find yourself "Goin' off the rails on the crazy train. Hahaha" -Ozzy Osbourne
